Believe it or not, I have my moments, moments of insecurity, fear of lack, anger from disappointments, and sadness. The weight of it all has definitely gotten lighter with therapy, which has shown me how to focus on doing things that lift me up when these feelings creep into my life.
When I’m in those moments, I simply ask myself: “Monica, what will make you feel better right now?” Then I roll with the healthiest option I can manage at the time. Sometimes that means eating a few chips, but not the whole bag. Other times it’s working out with a boxing YouTube video to release my aggression while blasting my “Bust the Windows Out Your Car” playlist (LOL). Sometimes it’s lying down for a nap, or lighting my candles and incense to shift the energy.
What I’ve learned is that I must be honest with myself about how I feel. My anger and sadness have a voice, and I no longer silence them by sweeping them under the rug. Instead, I deal with them day by day, allowing them to express themselves in the safest and healthiest way I can in each moment, without judgment. Because the truth is, we’re all doing the best we can.
I once read a comment on Instagram that said: “Anxiety is the conspiracy theorist of your mind.” I laughed so hard, but it was also so true! Anger, anxiety, and depression are like conspiracy theories planted in your head, trying to convince you that they are the truth, so they must be your reality. But in reality, we have the power to choose what we focus on and what we believe. It’s just not always easy to stay in that place of peace.
The world often thrives on our insecurities and our fears of not having or being enough. Add to that the “everything is perfect” lifestyle presented on social media, and it can feel almost taboo to admit anything different. Thankfully, mental health awareness and honest conversations are growing, and I am deeply grateful for that.
Still, I know I need to create space for myself where I can be real, even when it’s not popular. My hope is that the more people show what is truly real, the more others will understand that what they feel is not only normal, it’s okay. When that happens, we can begin to heal together as a community and get the support we truly need.
Sending you all virtual hugs.
Until next time, Sacred.
Finally Loving Life 
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