Getting what you want out of life!

I can’t believe that it has almost been a year! When I moved here it seemed like everything was in place for me to live a better version of my life and it was, except for one thing, I brought the old mindset with me. It took me a while to process what I actually had done and I‘ve had many moments of “What the hell was I thinking!” I realized that you can move but until you decide to embrace the change and see it for all that it has to offer, all you did was just move. For a while I found myself slipping back into my old routine, coming home from work and sitting in front of the TV. It took a visit from my mother for me to see what a great transition this was. She stayed with me for a month and had me going all day everyday on an endless pursuit of daily adventures and we still didn’t come anywhere near doing all of the things on her to do list!  Before she left she told me that I had a wonderful opportunity placed at my feet and to take advantage of all that I had access to. It wasn’t until then that I was able to SEE what I had access to; I finally lived in a place that offered me the recipe for what would be my perfect version of life. That’s when I fell in love! I fell in love with California, in love with San Francisco, in love with Lake Merritt Oakland…just absolutely head over heels in love! I fell in love with the fact that I can rent a car, get on the train or ride the bus a short distance and do any and everything. I can go skiing, white water rafting, zip lining, wine tasting, partake in the art scene, eat at a ridiculous amount of restaurants, be a tourist, hang out at the beach, relax by the lake, go sailing, I mean the options of what I can do here are unlimited! My mother helped me push past my old mindset and into what was my new life sitting in front of me, waiting for me to embrace it and except it as my own, therefor creating a new mindset along with new memories. For the first time in my life I am able to see all of the things that I want out of life and it actually looks obtainable and that excites me to no end! It’s been a journey of working through my past emotions and views on how I see myself and my life, but I have finally gotten to a place where I can see all the great things that are laid out before me. I am now participating in life instead of sitting on the sidelines watching others live it. I just needed to find a place that fit not only my personality, but also my current state in life, a place that I could call home but also felt like home. I took the time to ask myself what I really wanted out of life. I faced my fears and acknowledged that I am not in control of giving myself everything that I desire but took a leap of faith anyway in order to obtain the things that I did have control over. It turns out that I am a city girl! Who knew? I didn’t follow the script of how society says life should unfold, what can I say, I’m a late bloomer, but I rather bloom late than to not bloom at all.  I‘m finally loving life! Stay tuned for the next chapter of what has become my new life!         -FLL

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