5 July, 2012
How to live in the present!
There is nothing like a holiday that gets you thinking about the important things in life. As I comfort a friend who lost her mom this past week, had a panic attack because I couldn’t get in contact with my dad and thought that something happened to him, was wishing I could hear my mothers voice and in the next moment she called me, I realized that I spend a lot of time focusing on what isn’t done, what can’t be done or what I should of done as I reflect on the past. I hate the fact that I look back on my twenties and thirties and wish that I would have realized how great that time was and would have done it better or just different. What I hate even more is spending my forties operating in that same pattern. Have you noticed that when you look back and reminisce that you only see what was good about that period of time but when you were living it you didn’t? For my Fourth of July celebration, I celebrated the moment and everything that was right in that moment. I know that one day I will look back and think of this time as one of the greatest, so if I’m going to reminisce like it was, I might as well live like it is. I’m going to cherish all that has been given to me, because it is a gift that shouldn’t have to wait to be honored 10 to 20 years down the road, it was meant to be cherished now.